check-up 12/6/11

So 25 days of matrimony and I find myself staring at my wife attempting to predict when she will change when the other shoe will come crashing down...... is this normal? She quite often will get quiet for some time, then turn into chatty Kathy whom needs my constant attention. Is it because she also is counting the minutes until MY mask comes off? Does she regret making the choice to marry me so quickly? Is it too much too fast? Are my ways that much of a drastic change from hers that she feels lost, slowly losing her identity? The view from the outside was soooo much clearer, I began my journey of love wanting to "fix" the broken family I found, know the picture is constantly changing. Our daughter looks to me for most of the emotional attention, so on a daily basis I smother both my wife, and daughter with all the love I can muster. Of course I feel it right back, but have I forever ruined the dynamics of my wife's relationship with our daughter? My daughter spoke of how they would ignore each other the majority of the time, and how she may long those times, but when I questioned my own silence in the home she re-assured me that was not her request. My wife loves quality time with me, as do I. But on a daily basis the list of things to do grows even more endless, will there ever be a time where she, and I can enjoy the honeymoon phase we never got? I've been toying with the idea of whisking her away for a weekend just us two, because before we know it Caleb will be here needing both of us CONSTANTLY. To this day I have NO complaints, I know no marriage is perfect, and the same goes for family. I am overly thankful for both of mines. I know without a shadow of doubt, I have indeed married my soul-mate! I will keep a diary of my marriage like a monthly check-up or check-in of sorts. Right now, I need to stay vigilant in my original goal of making my family a better functioning unit, and keep everyone happy at the same time.......as I type this I chuckle that once not too long ago I thought that would be easy, like a thirty minute sitcom resolution.......lol I know for sure I watch too much tv now! Welp I feel tons better now, but I know I'm not done with this check-up yet. To Be Continued..........................

Making it Official......

Hey there, 

To begin our wedding didn't go as planned, but was even more beautiful than we could've hoped or planned! Don't believe me? Take a look for yourself......

I can honestly say I have never been this happy in my life, I have found what many will never, I have my true soul-mate, someone who understands me, who will always have my best interest at heart, I will forever honor the love we share, our children will grow amongst the love, and happiness in our home! I love you Mrs. Laura L. Schoenmehl <3